*** my 27th birthday & vending.
my 27th birthday is on the 7th. when i turned 17 or so i kind of stopped feeling any specific way about my birthday but this year i'm a little apprehensive about it. 26 felt so close to 25 and 27 feels so close to 30 and i am definitely feeling the nerves of that. hitting all sorts of usual 'have i really changed?' 'have i made anything worthwhile?' 'am i doing anything interesting?' feelings. i still work at the same job i've had since i graduated college; stagnation feels like a side-effect when that's what the bulk of your life has looked like for 6 years.
i vended for the first time at an art event and had an absolute blast. that has helped buffer some of these feelings; both as a new first and also as something creative that i brought into some sort of public sphere for consumption by strangers and acquaintances and friends. i made a shocking amount of money which felt great, it was at a j-fashion event and i drew little chibi forms of people in their coords for the night (or their favorite character if they preferred). beyond that it was also just nice to draw for people. and it was surprising the questions i got about what other events i might table at, if i had an instagram, things like that... i didn't think it would garner as much interest as it did.
6.6: i had something more to say about this but i don't know. i can't find myself to be especially eloquent or wordy about it in a way that feels particularly meaningful but i also don't really want to read back what i've already written & documented. i'm a little afraid i guess!